It’s been very challenging lately to share what’s on my heart because my words fail me frequently and when I do speak I have been received as angry and uncompromising. Although the latter is true the former is not.
There are only 2 things I bother getting angry about 1) an unrepentant sinner
2) injustice in every form
That’s it. At the end of it all, those are my hot spots.
Oh sure we could explode this into a huge topical debate on what Justice is or what a true sinner is, but that is all semantics and does not reach the heart of the matter.
My greatest daily challenge is not all things Covid, although they are caused by all things Covid. My daily challenge during all of covid, although that has contributed to my issue, is that my tiny family has been grieving the loss of our “glue that holds the family unit together “ aka Mama! We buried her the day before covid was announced. If people see me as angry right now, that is the root of it. I’m only 58!!! SHE was only 75, she did not see 76. To put this into perspective, my Mama and I have very similar- not identical health issues. Very few medications worked well on Mama, and the one the gave her made her stomach bleed into her body, which killed her in the end. What good is 120 year lifespan heart valve of metal when the medication you have to take gives you internal bleeding as a side effect? Not me, Mama. I have a very faint heart mermor so I need to remain calm and away from high stress. Apparently they tell me that if my stress levels get to high my heart will kill me. With everything going on in the world right now there is a part of me that says “just bring it in already, I’m done with all this garbage agendas from the Uber wealthy people running garbage talk against our GOD!” Then there’s that other side. You know the one, we all feel the tug. What about what God says? What about what Jesus died for in the cross? What about the fact that when I first read the words “social distancing I knew immediately it was not ever intended to be only temporary and that they were doing this to turn people’s smart homes into prisons?? Why target the churches first rather then the stadiums? Both hold social gatherings? But oh no! We must keep the god and idol of sports open for people to worship at, but the one true God, no we can’t let them gather together!
Okay I stop now. But you can all see what I’m saying although I speak with only 1. I have so much inside and am being withheld from speaking.
My friend I’ve been ministering to is even becoming even more like the world but she comes for more Jesus. lol she’s almost more stubborn then I use to be. Please pray for her salvation. I don’t like the feeling I keep getting that she’s going to “try” to be a tribulation saint. But it’s like I heard one say recently, “if you’re not going to live for Jesus now, you won’t be able to during the tribulation.”
Canada is overrun by lunatics because we have Cuba’s old dictator’s son running the show here now. My province is just over half jabbed and shot up, I’m guessing the colonists are not letting them in for religious reasons, but even that is being mandated out and even our masking alone since the beginning had been MANDATORY. Tam wanted us to wear them in our homes and when sexual relations were in progress. When she came out with that one SO many people here basically told her to …… you know the rest.
I’ll come back after coffee
Being alone is easy, not holding my Dad when he’s crying for my Mama is ripping the heart out of me.
Please pray for him Abram.
I really do need a person of Jesus to talk with.