“But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.”
Matthew 6; 33
This has been so true in my life, as the one about being given the right words at the right time, it’s sort of an instantaneous quickening tangent to the situation and you know it’s not coming from you, and no one could have said it better and you end up marveling, like ‘wow!’
This is how it works with faith too. God gives you what you need when you need it. Picture a wooden slab on top of a ball. The ball rolls and the slab can move, but it has to move, and it moves over the ball but only one part of it touches the ball at any given time, and that is the instantaneous moment we are in. You could call it the ‘calculus’ of deliverance, which is why it happens at the moment 11:59. And oh! I have seen that in my life so much! If He gives it to you sooner, you are not ready and don’t know what to do with it, it works better this way. One thing at a time.
Now a bit about worry and anxiety. I too have suffered from these. It went away in much the same way as for JD when I was younger. But later in life due to the ‘change of life’ in women, many of us suffer from serious anxiety and some seek medication for that, which I hear is hard to get off of later. I did not want anything like that so I just went right through it. It was at that time that God called me to move, with my very elderly mother, to another state. We were in the big city all the way in southern CA and it was just like this road sign ‘get out.’ Well I felt lead to move to a rural part of another state across the border. We left senior housing. I left my job. I got a motel reservation in the town we were headed. We had no place to stay lined up, no job waiting, and no family anywhere in the world, only us. Yup. A leap of faith? I rented a car, loaded it up with all our stuff, and made the long journey with her up, then went back down and took the last load in my car, all that we had in the world. Keep in mind, I had never even been to the place we were moving to! I also had a history of in my travels, going to places and being disappointed that it did not match the travel brochure. On top of that my anxiety. But He gave me the peace to endure it. Was I scared? Witless! But I felt that things would be much worse where we currently lived and we needed to go, and not to fear, it was a deliverance much like all the other ‘red sea’ partings in the past. I remember my fits of anxiety. I knew God called me to do it but I still suffered from this and it was partly physical due to the body changes I was going through. We had a pink towel in the hotel bathroom (my favorite pink, carnation!) hanging there on the rack. Each morning when I got ready to face the day I closed the door, turned off the light, and cried my eyes out with anxiety into that towel! And yes, I prayed. Sometimes at night I repeated this. Well, in a little over a week I had a job with a Christian company, of which there were many here. I found a church home and everyone kept telling me how ‘hard’ it was to find housing here. (Gulp.) Well okay, in another week we had an apartment, just before Thanksgiving! And it’s so beautiful! We have been so blessed by coming here, we love it here, and now things are getting worse in all the big cities with mandates. And in our lovely bathroom, sometimes that pink towel hangs up where you hang hand towels and it’s like God says to me, “You SEE?”
And there was the time of the endless paperwork and red tape. It was endless. The paperwork for my mom’s health insurance. A flat tire. Another flat tire. Other paperwork problems, it just never ended. I’ve always been one of those ‘all my ducks in a row’ type of people, and things not being squared away really bothers and frustrates me. I was so frustrated and cried out to God ‘why?!’ I was at the verge of a nervous break down with all the things coming apart at the seams. I don’t mind persecution at all, as long as there is a reason for the suffering! Was my plea. Well it was through that that God showed me that instead of having my peace and security resting in the fact that ‘all my ducks were in a row,’ I needed to have it ONLY in Him! Not in the fact that I had a job or not, knew where the next meal was coming from, or that the paperwork was all in place for everything, etc. All that stuff can be blasted to the far ends of the earth, in the wind, it won’t matter in the near future anyway! So it was like, oh, okay, and I just did it. I let go of it all and ‘blasted’ it away, and it WORKED! Not only that, I had such a peace about it and just didn’t care anymore, and it all came together after all! It was just another lesson.
And, I’m in this place now that sort of hovers above the cares of this life. I just share this because I want to help people who are going through this stuff right now. God might be moving you in a totally new direction and something good will come out of it. Maybe you will move in with family, and they will get saved by watching your example. Maybe this, maybe that. When it comes to worry, it truly is futile. Like that thing about the worries of today are enough, well consider this. Yes, most of the things we worry about don’t happen. And some do. But, there are things that happen that we WOULD have worried about, had we known about them! But God is in control and He delivers me from all of these troubles anyway! So I finally learned not to worry because of that, He holds the future, not me. The solution comes when we need it, and it always does. It’s like He’s up there saying, “well, I wonder if Bob will trust me THIS time?” Or whoever, you fill in the name. We are put through fiery trials for reasons as well and there is much to say about that and I won’t spring into that now, to make a long story even longer, and I knew that, but it’s another thing when you go through it. It’s like we have to experience these things in ‘real time’ and overcome through the Holy Spirit, it has a result nothing else can produce, like a trophy sculpted in the fire or something.
Now, I am in a place where anything can happen and I’ll be fine. I won’t take the jab as I said. Might I lose my job? Maybe. And then I will. Maybe I won’t be able to pay rent and keep this lovely place. Maybe… And maybe we’ll be homeless. We get some real wintery weather here too. I might die of exposure. My mom as well. Everything I have may disappear. There are so many variables. But a mother with children whose husband can die anytime will face the same fears; then what do I do? My answer is, okay, so then I will suffer it. God will deliver me, and even if not, I won’t take the jab because it violates my faith. I won’t do anything else either for the same reason, regardless of the consequences I suffer. So I join my persecuted brethren, so be it! Somehow I am so carefree about it all, there is something so freeing about knowing that it’s all in His hands!
Plus, okay. I do get to cheat a little. Because He shows me what is to come. And I know that none of this pile of troubles that might happen is even going to matter because of that. Some place their hopes in an early escape, but it is actually something else. For me the result is the same.
That stuff in Matthew 24 is actually about us. If people skip the commentaries it’s clear. But I won’t get into that again here and now. Either way I have nothing to fear, it’s the normal path that lay ahead of us as His disciples. I just see the sparkles of the kingdom in this path of thorns that many others can’t yet. That is my little reassurance, I know what is coming and none of this is going to matter. I said this before but I was not surprised by any of the things that have come that caught most off guard because of this sort of insight. I knew what ‘covid’ was about the day it hit. nwo is here. I would have been laughed to scorn. But oh, who’s laughing now? Not those people. Whatever I was told has all come to pass. Why would I doubt Him now?!
Now… this Fall is going to be a storm of events. Just be ready.
Spiritually ready. I have seen documents all over about them setting up the camps, there is one from DHS about folks like us being called ‘domestic terrorists’ for refusing the covid mandates. It’s all around the corner. Search it out and see for yourself. Sites have it like ‘now the end begins’, ‘rather expose them blog,’ and on youtube ‘the prepared homestead’. It’s a real document. Again, it’s not a surprise to me. For the better part of a decade I knew and was able to prepare. The Holy Spirit will show you what is to come. That is in the Bible. We all have access as saints, but not all choose to use it. Do not be surprised when these things come upon you. Many who slumber will be caught off guard.
Blessings, love, and peace in the Holy Spirit