Man, and I thought all the conversations had over various doctrines was difficult. I’ve talked with many teens and adults who’ve had suicidal thoughts and were trying to attempt it. The gravity of it changes when it’s a little kid. You can’t use the same level of conversation with a kid as you can a teen or adult. Kids need an escape from the realities of the world. The tragedy of the world rests heavy on the brow of a child that cannot have a chance to see a different world that is play and pretend. Being Autistic is even harder. I have not one iota of true experience with that.
As my heart weeps and yearns for understanding for you; I applaud you for the strength God set forth in you to accept this challenge without even knowing. The dedication for being a mother of such strength and courage. A woman who can take the pain of childbirth and therefore raising a child is a badge of honor within God’s plan for inhabiting this earth. The strength that God has bestowed upon you to enlighten a child that has Autism. A heart that God gave you bigger than some who cannot tolerate the sound of a crying child without blowing their lid.
Why God created such a strong woman within you draws respect to you from so many who must know you and must not even equate what your life is like even while the world within this upside down world is dishing out. You are a candle in a strong wind trying to blow your flame out and yet you stand strong facing a hurricane storm of multiple evolutions in your life.
A motto that has provided some solace in this world for me, is “The Only Easy Day was Yesterday.” It’s military but it’s also true. We worry about the problems of today and not tomorrow for tomorrow will have its own problems. You have come a long way from where you began in this journey, Miss. You have halted turmoil in places of the heart most don’t know exist. You have eased the tempting of evil more times than some could fathom enduring. You have fought off the wiles of the devil in ways some are too scared to announce exist, Ma’am. I salute you for your fortitude. I honor you for your strength and heart. You can overcome and you will overcome till the day we are called home. Remember that always.
Caring Merciful Father
We beg you to cast forth a heavenly light upon this woman and her family. Blazing a glorious light upon her 8 year old daughter. No matter the obstacle You allow us, we are given an opportunity to do something for Your good with it. Whether tinnitus to help us ignore the temptations of the devil, or autism to ignore the normality of peer pressure to guide us to wrongdoing. You have given us all gifts. No matter if these senseless meanderings of the minions of evil show us these gifts as curses, You have allowed them for some good we have yet to understand.
Perhaps we are given trials because You know the perseverance that we must endure later on is necessary to train for with what is given now? Perhaps we are given the opportunity overcome what many can’t understand and therefore YOU will be a strength for others to help them overcome what they can’t handle, but you, Ma’am…you call “Tuesday”.
O Lord, please engulf this woman with the everlasting joy for her heart that You protect with the love You have for us. Hold her and her family as gentle lambs shaking from the cold and fear of the wolves they hear in the distance. While the world is tearing itself apart, please Lord cover their hearts and minds with peace and calm.
Dear Lord, Calm the heart and especially mind of this 8 year old child. Help her to play pretend to escape the normality of this world while still in this world while we wait in hope and faith to be out of this world. Let this 8 year old child know the beneficial meaning of life for her time. Allow her please, a message fitly spoken to her from You, the Almighty. Creator of Heaven and Earth so she understands and can overcome the stress she faces today…just as her mother faces the same stress and torment.
Please melt the troubles of this little child and her family with the fervent heat of the light of Heaven through your loving gaze and smile like candle wax in winter. Provide this family with the wisdom needed to overcome. Provide this family with a respite needed to overcome. Provide this family with the calm of their hearts and minds through the refilling of the Holy Spirit. Cast forth a joy and happiness in this woman’s heart that rivals all comprehension. Bring forth a happiness in the heart and mind of this little child so she may leave the cares and stress and attention distracting moments behind and be the little girl she needs to be. In Your time, Your way.
We pray this in Jesus’ name