Well, first and foremost, you’re quite welcome for the prayer. When I read prayers, I let the Holy Spirit inspire me to write one for someone and I just go with it. Not understanding all the time why I’m typing everything, but it has a purpose of some sort.
Thank you for elaborating on your life too it helps to understand a few things. I am sorry about the circumstances for your divorce (I know, you said there was more to it than this) and it hurts to hear things like this happen. They do though. As for your sinning and falling short. You’re right we ALL do. And let me just say that in no way although it may read as such, I’m not judging you one bit. I have no room to judge you and it’s not even on my radar. Now, you could be a serial killer, then I may be a smidge judgemental…ya know…it happens. I am also glad to hear that a positive note came from your previous marriage and that your kids turned out okay!
When it comes to your sentiment of JD, I couldn’t agree more. I was led to JD through a list of false doctrine and wrong teachings that led me to one man whom in turn talked about JD and I decided to give him a chance as I wasn’t having much of a positive experience through my own findings. Glad I was led to him though.
Going back to sin and temptation for a mo; temptation is the hardest thing to fight, no matter what the temptation is regarding. Thankfully however, quilting is not what I would consider a temptation and since I don’t quilt…Praise God! But I fight it daily, who doesn’t? And I have to bring to the forefront a huge marker board with strategy graphs on it. Reminding myself that temptation only shows me two choices to make and yet there’s that third one in the background staying silent, knowing I CAN make the right choice if I choose to.
If I take either choice offered me, I screw up somehow. And then I get the snide comment of “I didn’t hold a gun to your head. You could have said no.” Satan loves to pull that maneuver on all of us. Instead of taking the bait, we turn and walk away, saved to worship another day (as they say…and no I didn’t mean that to rhyme).
So, in this high stress job and you say that many nights you can’t “turn it off”…are you referring to the stress you can’t turn off? Or is it like your mind is running at break-neck speed and you can’t shut your mind off? For me it’s the latter at times. And once I wake up at 0300 and start thinking…Have mercy if I can ever get back to sleep.
When you’re high energy and you’re having to do it nonstop, the body begins to say, “Slow your row! I gotta take a breath, man!” And yet life won’t allow it in a workplace like that. Not like I know, but that makes sense.
The tugging on the sheets, I’ve had that myself as well. I freaked out one day and it got me out of that paralysis I spoke up mighty quick only to notice there was nothing there. There’s a term for what I’m about to mention but I can’t remember right now but you see objects or shapes out of your peripheral vision off to the side and you look over and there’s nothing there.
I’ve had that so many times in my life. Lately, I’ll see this little white shadow slowly peek around a door opening and as I’m about to look over, it quickly ducks away. You’d think it was a gnome and I don’t use travelocity so…I thought it was one of my dogs for a bit but it was too low to the ground for that. But God is there to lean on and to talk to and to keep us as sane as possible.
And I bet having this extra intel will help pinpoint other’s prayers from here on out. I thank you for dipping into your history for us to help you in prayer, Byron. I pray that the Lord answers in ways you pray for as well.