@Ann1 I have had those worries in my life as well. I worked for two cinemas in my life and both I continually worried about had I locked the doors at night, had I threaded the projectors right and sometimes I screwed up. Even with all I did to maintain calm and with all I did on very little sleep, I worried for nothing (mainly because I got fired eventually from both but that’s beside the point). There was one night I worked at my [family’s] photography studio and I fell asleep and left the door unlocked. I heard the door at about 2 am open and then shut and heard a whistle. I came out of the shooting room and stood in front of the door silently, looking at the guy waiting for a friend to come and enter. At least I was able to fix that mistake.
Y’know, we go through life like that and we begin to lose sight of the beauty of it and certainly the relaxation that is lost in the worry. The big things and little things. We are doing it on our own steam a lot of times and you know what? It’s silly in retrospect. You have a number of obligations I do not and in those hats you have to wear, I can see why you feel the way you do. There’s no amount of prep that feels sufficient to even remotely allow you a “Calgon moment”. But what was it that the Lord said?
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
You know that by heart I’m sure. It’s easy to say and hard to do when you’re alone and doing the work of two (or more). Lest not forget the need for someone to talk to. Not always talk with, but talk to. You may find that last part hard, especially on this forum as many of us who sit and read, then always have something to say lol. There are those who just sit quiet and read and “like” a post so you know they “hear” ya. Not the same as audibly talking though.
While I do have my mom and reluctantly, my sister who actually do talk, I have my pets who ignore me, I have myself who preaches to the choir, but as you know, we have the Lord. But you’re talking a physical person who will show they are listening. I think anyway. Keep your head up, sister-in-Christ. You’re gonna get through this with flying colors.
Longsuffering and Always Loving Heavenly Father
We place at Your throne a trouble that overwhelms Ann which has taken over her entire life. We ask that while You mend her broken heart, that also she be blessed with a heavenly calm and peace in her heart and mind as she is also blessed with a galvanizing protection for those not of You. We ask in her place, You would kindly provide an ear to hear her and a heart who listens with that ear. Please calm her soul and place a sense of anxiety that dwells in her to leave her and go back to where it came, in Jesus’ name.
Please deliver her from the affliction of being “compulsive” as she is and fill her heart with an overabundance of joy and deliver her to the answers and solutions to snare anxiety out of her life when it begins popping up. She’s a single mom, as You know and in that derives her need for doing many things at the same time. Please aide her with assistance so she doesn’t have to “do it all herself”.
Please bring forth an angel within her midst to aide her in times of necessity and offer her an ear in times of needing to share. Help her and guide her; deliver her to overcome the anxieties, the worries, the compulsiveness, and the loneliness through her struggles and show her an extended moment of peace around her, please?
We pray this in Jesus’ name