Hi Jessica and @CMOORE. My heart goes out to you.
I also lost my spouse suddenly, but it was in 2005.
At the time he died, I had two daughters that were both about to have my first grandchildren. I wanted to comfort and be strong for them, so I put aside my grieving for their sake. I believed I was doing great and had gotten over all of it.
Six 6 years later when my father was dying, it all hit me like a ton of bricks. I went through double grieving and thought I was going crazy and there was something wrong with me.
I found out that it is common for some people to put aside their grieving for various reasons and that is o.k.
I write all of that to tell you Jessica and Catherine, to do all the grieving you need to do and don’t hold it back for any reasons. There is no time limit on grief - no matter what anyone else tries to tell you. We all deal with loss in our own ways.
God knows, and God understands. He Blesses those that mourn. He cares for the widows and orphans.
Both of you have lost your husbands at such trying times so the feelings you are going through are exacerbated by the times we are in.
It is great that you started this thread where you can talk and share about it. It is very needed. Talking about it helps ease the pain. We need to talk about it.
I wish I had somewhere I could have shared at that time but I didn’t.
I am glad Catherine has shared as well and I do hope you might be able to share more with one another as the timing is so similar. God can use the two of you to comfort and exhort one another.
I will be praying for both of you.
Much love in Christ dear sisters.