Greetings. I don’t know where we introduce ourselves but this seems like the most logical place. I’m still figuring the place out, but it’s not like they’ve been around a while, I’m sure others are, too.
I was extremely docile as a kid. That was great for my family, I listened really well, but it was hard for me to know what was true so I listened to pretty much anyone in authority no matter what. (Might even be a bit of developmental delay along with my vision and hearing handicaps.)
So, I might have prayed with someone in Sunday School when I was 5-6. I went to an Evangelical Lutheran church and they did a great job of sharign the facts of the Bible, but I don’t recall l a lot about making sure it was a personal relationship. It’s possible I prayed, but it’s also possible I only did so because someone said to without knowing what it meant.
So, the Gideons were passing out New Testaments with Psalms and Proverbs my sophomore year in college. I was excited to take one and read it - I’ve heard some say that only a saved person it that excited about reading the Bible. I always loved reading and felt it was a great study break, and I loved knowing about Jesus. So, again, I don’t know if that meant I was saved - but God knew I was hungry to know Him.
I didn’t get halfway through Matthew before I starfted to realize while I had always tried hard to be good and nice to others and stuff like that, I never smoked, drank, cursed, etc., but I was still a sinner. Where Jesus spoke of how one’s thought life could be all messed up, for instance, I realized I was a sinner in need of His salvation. I wasn’t perfect like Jesus demanded.
It wasn’t right at first, but not long after I started reading, that I knelt by my bed in my dorm room and called on Jesus to save me from my sin and make me new inside, and clean up that thought life.
I recall right away certain thought patterns changed as I gave them over to the Lord. Especially in the area that you’d expect a 19YO guy to struggle with his thought life. I wanted others to know Jesus. I remember vividly thinking about my biological dad, who had a drinking and womanizing problem - my mom was his 2nd of 3 wives, we left when I was 20 months and moved back with my grandparents for a while. He’d died a few years earlier (alcohol-related suicide) and I wished dI could write him telling him I forgave him, I loved him, and Jesus could save him.) (Great news - according to my sister from his first wifewhom I met a number of years later, he almost surely did get saved in the end. He just hadn’t been able to fully shake his drinking.)
I think, deep down, when I thought about it I knew there had to be something more than just knowing the facts about Jesus. Nicodemus might be a goodBiblical comparison to my life, at least in my relationship with God.
I’ve served the Lord in a variety of ministries in my church and outside of it over the years, including an inner city youth ministry and Global Media Outreach. It’s great to see God at work.
I don’t know how much I’ll really post here, I’m trying to stay away from news and stuff in general and focus on the Lord - all the stuff going on is enough to drive one crazy, and personality-wise I can still be like Elijah if I’m ot careful - having great faith (partly becasue of how God has helped me overcome my handicaps) but tempted to fret under a juniper tree if the de3vil really starts attacking. It really doesn’t matter what happens with this election - I am so anxious to go hom to Heaven to see my departed loved ones and the one I haven’t yet met - I prayed hard to adopt and eventually God gave me assurance, as I began praying like Hannah did for Samuel, that He has a child in Heaven for me, maybe one of the many who get aborted each year. I include the Gospel in a good number of blog posts about it, thinking maybe someone reading will get saved.
[It's here if interested](https://tomychildinheaven.blogspot.com) (I’m figuring out how to link stuff, which is nice. ) I try to share the Good News any way we can spread the Gospel. I also have written a number of Print On Demand fiction books.