I think life is starting to get me down a bit, just everything going on. Normally I don’t let stuff bother me, or at least I try to not let stuff bother me especially if I have no control over it. I have never been the type to feel depressed or anything like that. I pray regularly and read my Bible, I trust God to provide and take care of me and my family. However I think in spite of all of that, I just feel down and am having a hard time shaking it too.
All I really care to do is be at home with my wife, I don’t really want to go out in public, not so much because of covid but because I just don’t want to be around people. Which then seems to be feeding that desire to be a hermit that I have joked about having at times. In fact I’m having a hard time finding enjoyment in much of anything, even the stuff I normally enjoy doing. Maybe this is how I should be as far as “letting go of this world” is concerned. The way the world is going I can see why some people believe we will go through the Tribulation. Don’t get me wrong, I still believe and am confident that the rapture will take place before the Tribulation. But as crazy as this world is getting and as bad as it is in parts of the world already. I understand those who disagree with pre-trib teaching. It’s getting ugly out there, there is no hope in this world, it’s going down the tube.
I guess I’m just needing some extra prayer, that God will strengthen me and give me some peace and joy in spite of everything. I don’t like feeling this way and I really don’t want to feel this way. I don’t like it when others kill the “good vibes” I normally have going on, I don’t want to be the kind of person killing everyone else “good vibes” so to speak.