I’m in a weird situation at work, and I knew it was coming and should have done something about it while I was working from home over the last 2 years, but I didn’t.
Our office is closing in a couple of months, and we’re merging with another local office. One of my Sr managers has already quit, and the other is relocating to yet another location. Because the building is closing, this means my own job is going away. I’m told I should look for another job in my company, but I really don’t want to work there any more. On top of this, my immediate manager seems to have it out for me, she’s either trying to get me to quit or…perhaps I should just let her fire me? Seems I can do nothing right, and am constantly being called on the carpet for things I didn’t even know about, or thrown under the bus publicly (which she did in a response email to myself and several others just last week). It’s gotten quite ugly.
I am BEYOND stressed. It’s now making me physically ill, I’m unable to sleep, I cry a lot, and have to really ‘buck up’ before entering the building each morning. I really do want to quit just for my own peace of mind, but God “gave” me this job years ago after I was out of work for almost a year, and I begged Him for a job. So then I feel guilty about that as well, that I’m squandering His blessing.
I would love to retire–but I am in a weird gray area where I’m just too young for retirement, yet still need to bring in steady income. I’m thinking of a career change, but have no idea what that would be (I’m an EA/Admin). I’m just…stuck.
I would appreciate prayer for the following:
- 1st: for restful sleep, peace of mind & a cheerful disposition (I’ve been a very ‘sour girl’ lately).
- 2nd: that another route/path will make itself VERY clear.
- 3rd: that I not become angry, bitter, and guilt-racked over my current situation, or against my supervisor (we’re just very different from one another).
Thank you all and many blessings to you.