Lies given to you
Ya know, Vicki, I have a mental image or idea of many people on this forum, you included and to be grounded for a moment, you and those like you seem to be like a pillar of strength and to borrow from mythology, an Atlas as such.
So, to hear you are dealing with shame is humbling and I thank you for opening up here. My answer to you though is simple and it’s helped me in moments where I have felt this way. “That’s what God’s grace is for.”
People feel they don’t pray enough, they don’t do enough good things, they sinned one too many times, they need to do this more or do this less; That’s what God’s grace is for.
I can write up a prayer for you because, ironically, I pray for this every night for people in general. It’s kinda funny how more and more posts from people are bringing up to me, the things I pray about every night.
Merciful and Loving Heavenly Father
We sometimes consider you with the eyes of our earthly dads and consider you to have a limit to your love and acceptance and tolerance for us. Yet we also coincide that with the knowledge that You gave us Your only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. We know that Christ told us to forgive endlessly those who wrong us, so, in that understanding, why would You be any less forgiving to us? Not that this gives us a license to sin, but if we screw up…You’re right there to look at us and if we are genuinely sorry and genuinely ask forgiveness and genuinely repent…why would You hold back forgiveness from us?
With Vicki here, I have been silly in a way to place her on some sort of pillar as I have equally done with so many others here. But, she’s needing something from You greater than a ladder to get off that pillar and be grounded in Truth–Your Truth.
Please bless Vicki with a heavenly comfort of calm and peace in her heart and mind for the wrongs she as accepted via temptation in life lately that have cast her into shame. Lift up her chin and have her gaze into your glorious heavenly light and please speak into her through the Holy Spirit and say to her, “That’s what My grace is for, My child.”
She’s smart. Smarter than me, Lord, and therefore I pray she will resonate with this prayer for her. I pray You bless her with a galvanizing of her heart and mind to the wiles of the Devil. We are faced with temptation daily and You know all too well how I have succumbed to temptation more times than I care to admit which is never, that I have allowed myself, shamefully too, to accept temptation. But God knows my heart. You know Vicki’s heart. If she is anywhere near the person I have thought her to be, she then shall have her heart melt from the heat of Your love to reveal Your truth to her.
The temptation is but two options we are given and we accept one and chastised by the offering party for accepting either. Damned if you do, damned if you don’t so, might as well be damned. Yet here we are as followers, continually tempted perhaps even more intensely than most to accept temptation and we stumble and fall many times in the process, as we fail to see the third option which stands in the shadows quietly. It’s Christ waiting for us to see His third option. That being Him.
We’re working hard not to screw up, Lord. We’re finding it more and more difficult lately and so I beg You O Lord, bless Vicki who suffers doubt, shame, questions and concerns, a little panicking even and anger towards herself–with comfort. Comfort through a heavenly peace and calm of understanding Your grace is sufficient. Your strength is made perfect in weakness. Bless her with ease of mind that she will not be left behind. Bless her with a wind to wipe her tears from her face as she cries out to You O Lord for forgiveness.
Place upon her understanding, a discernment to always look at what comes her way and weigh heavily what worth have I in accepting this temptation before me? As if sorrow is a treasure to accept then I am rich beyond my carnal dreams. Yet Grace of God is far more rewarding and therefore I do not take part in such sorrowful pursuits as God’s reward of eternal life awaits me because I have put away such childish things as I have become a Child of the Living God through Christ Jesus, my Lord and Savior.
Please help Vicki with this turmoil in her life O Lord.
We pray this in Jesus’ name