@Stephmerm
Aw Steph, my heart goes out to you. I’m so sorry you’re going through this.
Marriage can be hard work. When it’s good, it’s great, but when we hit rough patches, it can flip our worlds upside down.
Due to hurt feelings, our emotions can take center stage and sometimes it’s hard to step back to see what went wrong.
You expressing your love for God and wanting to go to Israel, annoys the enemy.
Anytime we want to strengthen our relationship with our Father, the enemy tries to distract us.
And it’s clear to see how the enemy is weaving himself in and out through this.
His strategy of attack comes in so many forms. But he especially loves to attack our minds. He pokes at our weaknesses and loves to remind us of things that annoy us about the ones we love the most.
It’s why many little explosions (arguments) come out of the blue. And alot of the times it’s over the dumbest things. We either see something or experience something that just doesn’t sit right with us, and instead of reacting in a calm, natural state - We internalize it.
Before you know it, this internal thought begins to fester. It grows roots and attaches itself to other open wounds.
And that is exactly what Satan wants.
He’s nothing but the spiritual jabberjaws of doom and gloom.
He loves to antagonize and poke us when we are feeling vulnerable or weak. But he especially loves to do this when we share our passion for the Lord.
At the end of the day, Satan hates families. It’s why we see so many broken homes.
But even more, Satan hates the children of Christ.
And Steph, you have such a big beautiful heart for the Lord. I can only imagine how delighted our Father gets when He hears how you want to experience more.
So, hold on to that. If this is God’s will, He will open the doors and arrange this trip to happen.
I know you’re hurting right now and you’re feeling quite alone, but just remember you have many who love you. Many who are standing by spiritually, and praying for both you and your husband. Including I.
We love you, but more importantly, Jesus’ Loves YOU!
Alissa