I feel your heart @SongSparrow
I have tried very hard to reach many in these last days and months. The Lord gave me the following passage of scripture to remember and to be calm and pray. We can only plant the seeds yet each soul must make their own decision. Jesus paid the price in full on the cross at calvary. We cannot and might I say should not try to add anything to it (not saying you are). We can only plant seeds, pray and go to work in love of our Lord Jesus and our God Most High. Planting seeds is an act of love, love of our neighbours.
6 I planted the seed, Apollos watered it, but God has been making it grow. 7 So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow. 8 The one who plants and the one who waters have one purpose, and they will each be rewarded according to their own labor. 9 For we are co-workers in God’s service; you are God’s field, God’s building. - 1 Corinthians 3:6-9
God bless you SongSparrow and comfort you with His Peace, grace and love.