I used to “feel” that way too. And I will continue to not “feel” comfortable in this life.
My brother (and we were very close) was murdered at 27 years old. I wasn’t saved at that time, and do not believe he was either.
In the 7 years between sentencing his murderer, to his release from prison (yes, that’s all he got), I contemplated ways in which to take revenge, yes, kill him.
BUT GOD… during that time, used my brother’s death, to save my father, and in part, myself.
I was shown mercy and grace by Him, even though I am unworthy. God changed my heart, and my way of thinking, and of “feeling”.
I found myself praying for the salvation of my brother’s murderer, and still do to this day (3 decades later)… and for his family’s salvation, and for fruit in his life that will glorify Jesus Christ.
What I learned from all this?
We cannot base our thoughts or our actions on “feelings” but only on God’s Word, and our clear understanding of His Nature and Attributes.
He never fails, never makes a mistake or a “bad” decision, and is Sovereign, Just, Truthful, Loving, Gracious, Merciful, and Holy Holy Holy.
He has always known who will choose Him, and who would not, yet even so… He loves us all, each and every one, enough to give us free will about this eternal decision. He knows what pain His children will suffer regarding our unsaved loved ones… More than we ever could… for He loves each and every single one of us, and was never willing that any, not even one, would perish. We have a God who undertands us, and cares.
I Praise Him that He will wipe away every tear and all sadness eventually, because of that great love, a love we can only get a glimpse of… so great a love that He gave His ONLY Son, so that we (totally unworthy and undeserving) would have eternal life.
For He is Infinite, and we are finite. His Ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts.
Knowing this, because He told us this… in His Word, we cannot allow the enemy to suppress our joy.
A simple well known statement pretty much covers it…
“Let go, and let God”.
explains how it is and why it is that our increasing trials actually serve as a prophetic indicator of how close we are to the pre-tribulation rapture.
